I have regretted much of my life and many times I feel why m I in this world?
I was never supported by my parents in any of my decisions and that’s the biggest regret ever who can have.
No career guidance by anyone whatsoever…except just do this do that but nobody explained me its scope in the long run.. n now I’m suffering!!! 
I wasnt good into academics esp. always sucked @ maths after 8th std. Got into commerce though wanted to go the science way…thanks to low percents in ssc. Completed my B’com and till date cant yet believe that I’m a graduate…seriously.. Gave couple of govt and bank exams but no +ve result. Never thought of doing mba and had no guts to study again and crack any cet etc. Was feeling hopeless. 
I was always available for everybody on earth but people esp so called friends always used me and when I needed somebody’s time, they just turned their backs on me…
I use to think what they did was right and spent my parents money with them but output was zero. They did it just for timepass. Friends just used my valuable advice and then when it came at me, no one was ever available.
Dad bought a PC at home, it was a kind of turnaround in my life and career. 
Learned everything my selves, did some courses, launched a website. Played nfs to its extent. Created stuff for nfs like tracks, cars etc, Wanted to become graphic designer and so on and wanted to work in EA. But at that time animation wasnt blooming in India. Then by this time i got completely indulged into IT hardware stuff.
Did some courses n got to know whats servers are etc. and got facsinated by it and decided to become a system admin one day. 
Got my first job then 2nd 3rd and now these days IT support works 85% only @ night wtf?? Did distance mba but hell no company values it..so again a waste! 
After medically ill for a long time doctors advices not to work in night shifts. Now I’m jobless for past a year.
Every company asks for so n so role etc. and if no exposure on it, I get disqualified. WTF? In this way nobody ‘ll get a chance to work on any technologist unless trained and exposed.
Now I regret why m I into IT? Only software people are blooming and rest are suffering like me who are into support..For them there’s just money but no life balance… 
Life seems very screwed up now…
Now I always feel i would have done better if would have taken some pain earlier…but again got no advice in time..
Sorry for this long story but this is the first place on earth I have expressed my selves up to a certain extent.
Life was, is and never has been easy for me….
Thanks for reading……
